Blood

December 16th, 2011Posted by raksha

The bloodied beak A wrong move And they came down Pecking Like vultures… My loved ones? They would pull me up I knew But not before the rebuke, the humiliation The discussion The taking apart The razing to the ground And watching the dust Have a heart, I scream Heart, wisdom and support all at [...]

Tears

December 8th, 2011Posted by raksha

Tears I ask… Are my tears worth anything if the person it is shed for does not even know it? If no one I love has seen it If no one who loves me knows of it… Tears, you obstinate tyrant Indifferent to propriety or decorum Uncaring of my image Erasing my pride in your [...]

…Less

September 14th, 2011Posted by raksha

…Less Allowing faith to weaken A beep at a time A blink at a time… Know that it is not you Yet check the phone and hear it say so And dip yet again… Today I marvel at the heart’s capacity for hope Today I want to be finite Today I want to know that [...]

For what could have been…

September 7th, 2011Posted by raksha

For what could have been… Finally he called today In an instant my throat welled up Crying was not an option, at least then For he did not care… I knew He knew that I knew We were one at least in this So crying was not an option… Why? The question would not go [...]

Is it my fate?

September 3rd, 2011Posted by raksha

Is it my fate to desire…ceaselessly? To want more…always And take it, when I can. To know in my every pore that I am sick bored And know the solution too Step out… Fuck the norms Screw goodness Be Id, be power And only then feel alive and interested… Am I insane that I am [...]

To be better….

August 30th, 2011Posted by raksha

My illusions didn’t have anything to do with being a fine actress. I knew how third rate I was. I could actually feel my lack of talent, as if it were cheap clothes I was wearing inside. But, my God, how I wanted to learn, to change, to improve! Marilyn Monroe I am obsessed with [...]

The imperative to defend

August 30th, 2011Posted by raksha

The imperative to defend It comes so naturally to us, almost as a reflex, to jump in and defend ourselves. Fight tooth and nail, present arguments, plead logic and justify- our stand, behaviour, words… anything of ours under attack. To be aware of others’ disapproval, criticism or doubt against us (or an action of ours) [...]

Gods…

July 5th, 2011Posted by raksha

Gods! Ushakant is a cancer survivor. He had Leukemia, the most notorious and difficult of all cancers. Doctors gave him ‘a few months at the most’ when they first found out about the hostile cells in his body. I met him at the TEDX last Saturday. It had been eight years since the foretold ‘few [...]

One Hundred years of solitude

July 5th, 2011Posted by raksha

One Hundred years of solitude… The medicines worked She is in much better health today She blasts the domestic help For her voice is back… One hundred years of solitude! I like your columns, he says Twelve hours of work And you can find time for my columns? Let us meet for coffee and discuss [...]

Easy way out…

June 22nd, 2011Posted by raksha

Easy way out… She brings out the worst in me I justify Can’t help but be Imprudent, snobbish, berating Pretentious, narrow, mean She provokes my ill-will And forces me to be what I am not Her words sear me And compel me to spit venom too Others know us to be closest still We maintain [...]